Bittersweet Memories!

First off this is not about My aunt..this is about my unborn baby that went home to be with the Lord last April 2008!

Today I thought about you--how old you would be what you would have thought about your baby brother...how I would have had to have the mommy is going to have a baby talk...Somedays I look at your brother and say oh how your older brother/sister would have loved you...its so hard sometimes to grasp that even though I didnt ever hold you or never felt your lil body in my arms I could love you so much...but in my heart I know you are well taken care of with God being your dad and my aunt of course my grandpa taking good care of you til mommy daddy and baby brother get there...Oh how I love you my lil one!! I just know your brother would have enjoyed looking up to you!!

Sorry today I had to get this out...for some reason the fact I lost a child has been really hard today on me...rather its the fact ive been so aggrevated with certain family members or the fact I can't have anymore children and my cyst could come back...whatever it is mommy thought about you today!!


God grant me the serenity
To accept the things I cannot change;
Courage to change the things I can;
And wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
As it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
If I surrender to His Will;
So that I may be reasonably happy in this life
And supremely happy with Him
Forever and ever in the next.
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As if life could get any better I am the wife to Billy my amazing hubby! During this year in May I gave birth to my miracle baby boy Aidan! Amazingly I think I have been in some trance of amazement of him! It hit me today next month My one and only baby will be 6 months old! Today as if seeing and holding him isnt enough My son pretty as you please reached up to play with my hand and decided to lace his lil fingers in with mine and hold my hand then turn up and give me all kinds of sugars!! I love being a mom more than anything and have never once regretted him...but today was my amazing first with my son and I just had to share how much this little blue eyed baby boy stole his mommy's heart all over again as he does everyday since they first layed him in my arms!